i've said it once...

and i'll say it again.
i've got the best people in my life.

blake came back early.
i couldn't be happier!
tomorrow will be 4 months.
it seems like so much longer than that.
but that's when we made it 'official'.

I LOVE!

slowly but surely

we finally have a set date for blake to come back.
december 3rd!
i cannot wait.
i'm ready for our house!
we're working our way to perfection.
this is going to be the best.
:)

i'm back in clarksville.
lake charles was not for me.
it's not for blake either.
but he has a job.
he'll be here in tn as soon as he has money saved!

ready for a house, a family, our life!
i love that boy sooooo much.

crazy.

i'm thinking about making a rash and crazy decision.
but i think i'm going to go with it.
go with your gut, right?!

"patience is a virtue, my child"

fuck that.
i'm super impatient.
but it's getting the best of me.
causing me to rethink, have doubts, go crazy.
this is also where my anxiety comes into play.
i've got to control it.
remind myself that i have the upper hand in the battle between me and my emotions.
everything will work out just fine.

i cant...

even begin to describe how much i love blake.
there are no words for it.

ups and downs and ins and outs

blake and i have multiple options for what we want to do right now.

but we can't decide what.

i wish this was easy.

i'm ready for us to just get our life started.

if only it were that simple.