"cause i fall three times as hard if it's for nothing at all"

they say distance makes the heart grow fonder...
really, distance just makes me cranky.
i'm ready for him to be home.
3 more days!

i start a babysitting job today.
i'll be picking the kids up from school and watching them a couple of hours a day.
and i can bring ryann with!
so i'm looking forward to this!

i can be really immature and selfish when it comes to relationships.
i feel guilty for my reactions sometimes.
but i'm tired of always having rocky relationships and constant interference.
i want this to be about me and him.
nobody else.
so please don't try to come between, i'd hate to turn into the crazy bitch i can be.

i cannot wait til the end of may.
cody is coming with me and my family to VA to visit my gparents!
we're going to busch gardens and hopefully the beach.
hopefully the time flies by 'til then!