summer summer summertime!

i am so ready for the summer.
i want BBQ's and swimming with friends.
more crazy sweaty shows at the coup!
vacations!
i'm soooo ready for it.

on another note,
do you ever feel like nobody is ever good enough for you?
like, for a relationship.
it's not that i think i'm way too amazing, i just feel like nobody is worth spending my life with.
maybe one day i'll come across that person.
but i just honestly feel like i'm gonna be juggling boys forever.
because i have such high expectations of what i want "the one" to be like.
i have an image of him in my head.
what he looks like and how he treats me.
and lately i've felt like if it's not this exact guy i have imagined in my head, then i don't want anyone.
hopefully i grow out of that.
who knows.