"you know that i could use somebody"

i had an amazing time at the beach.
shawna is the most awesome beach partner ever!!
the beach is such a perfect get away.

but back to real life.
i hate thinking i'm over and done with something.
then seeing the pictures and hearing about the life i wanted that you're living with someone else,
has my insides on fire.
everytime you give me the chance to have what i want, i pass it up because i'm scared.
then you go right back to being happy with someone else.
it hurts me like you could never imagine.
how on earth do i manage to let myself get so down about multiple loves?!
i have to stop caring.
i need to stop falling so fast.
i need to be independent.